Free Your Mind And Allow Yourself To Feel…

Cells hear our consciousness; consciousness needs to remember to listen to our cells too. What we speak to ourselves affects our cellular body and has the potential to become a false belief system in us. We have a heart consciousness and a mind consciousness that organically work together and create in harmony and love. But, we live in a world where humanity is being controlled by a Matrix for the mind. If someone were to ask you how you feel, would you know the answer? Or, would your mind intercept describing symptoms, but not feelings, do anything to avoid connecting to your heart consciousness to allow you to feel? Would your mind naturally avoid connection or is it the Matrix designed to keep you unplugged from the truth of who you are?




I recently experienced an energetic attack, which has not happened in quite some time. It made me feel disoriented and left me questioning myself. I connected with a soul sister shortly after instead of withdrawing, which is an easy pattern to fall into. She asked me how I felt. I started describing physical pains and how I could improve my body with what I eat, exercise etc. She said nope, stop, feel don’t think. That is your brain, not what you are feeling. Empty your mind. I think we all know how hard it is to empty our minds. I placed my hands on my heart center, and I asked my mind to step back, take a break and allow me to feel. It wasn’t the brains responsibility to feel, and with the challenges it faces on a daily basis from all of the programming it is tired. It needs us to give it a break and allow it to just be when we are able. Almost immediately there was total darkness surrounding me, it was my empty mind and then my heart consciousness was the strong presence and my body really began to feel. And, it wasn’t about judging the energetic attack. It was about remembering that my body needed to feel loved. My essence is love and this energetic force is bringing into my awareness an aspect of my shadow self to integrate and heal so that I can continue to remember. My body began to feel warm, cradled and my own energetic presence, my infinite light, The I Am that I Am. Once my mind was cleared from all of the programmed responses I could then engage with mind, body, soul, heart centered essence and I spoke empowering, loving, accepting, words out loud that needed to reverberate into this universe and connect with every fractal of my being as my cellular consciousness had just made a proclamation and it was another layer of deception and belief systems that were dismantled. Thank you for the experience Universe!




Take Back Your Sovereignty and Shine As The I Am That You Are!

I have observed people tearing one another apart, because of the events and the energy that is flowing in this Universe. So, I share this from my heart with the intention to share love from my heart and hopefully shake us all up a little to start asking questions to ourselves. If it offends you, ask yourself why? If it resonates with you ask yourself why? This is a journey of self discovery. Remember in the center of every beLIEf system you have been taught a lie and it is in your face if you will just start to question it.
If you beLIEve in Politics you have been deceived.
If you beLIEve in Religion you have been deceived.
If you beLIEve in Patriotism you have been deceived.
If you beLIEve in The Constitution you have been deceived.
If you beLIEve in Borders you have been deceived.
If you beLIEve in Justice/The JUST-US system you have been deceived.
If you beLIEve in Science you have been deceived.
If you beLIEve that modern medicine is your friend you have been deceived. What is called alternative medicine is organic pure healing.
If you beLIEve the Government is here to serve you, you have been deceived. Latin origin of the infamous term ‘Government’. The word ‘Government’ comes from the Latin verb gubernare: “to control,” and the Latin noun mens: “mind”. … Government literally means Mind Control.
If you beLIEve in The Education system you have been deceived.
If you beLIEve there is a good and bad, and you are just good or just bad you have been deceived.
If you beLIEve that anything that exists on this PlanET isn’t a living being that feels and experiences you have been deceived.
The very people that wanted you to beLIEve in God the Tooth Fairy The Easter Bunny and Santa Clause are the ones running our lives and we just say yes and celebrate the LiEs and pass them down generation after generation.
Is it not time to take back our Sovereignty and Remember Who We Are? Every thing beautiful and grand in my life has come from my Heart Essence and the rest is BS. Let us no longer be divided by the Matrix AI System created to divide and conquer. It is our time to rise into the Creators that we are and say no more! We Know Who We Are!






I AM What I AM and that is What I AM! I Love Being Me in all of My Totality! Every Day Whether Blissful or Dismal was Created By Me for Me. A Day spent in the Office, that Feels so unlike ME, Also Allows ME to have Days when I can JustBeMe… Come Rain or Shine I AM ALWAYS Divine! I AM Eternal and this I KNOW! YOU and I Co-Create this Journey so Surreal, and yet Real. WE are Individuals, yet WE are ONE in UNITY. WE are Mirroring US each and Everyone! I Love YOU and YOU LOVE ME. Separation it just Feels a Part of this Finite Reality. Every Role WE Play is a Lesson Learned and Wisdom Gained. We Play these Roles to Show the Way. For WE are The WayShowers and WE Light the Way.




How Deep Must We Go?



How deep must we go? Is there a bottomless pit that leads to nowhere? What if we take a risk and allow ourselves to be vulnerable enough to dive into that pit and discover that it actually leads to Know Where? The deeper we go the more aware and empowered we are. It is raw, but is real and it is where you remember the truth about who you are. No illusions no one to blame no shame. Embodying all that you are wholeheartedly. This is returning to innocence…

Healing And Integrating Experiences In Our Journey



Many of you that have known me for some time know that I have vivid memories of one of my past lives in which I lived. This particular time period is during the time of King Arthur and I feel very connected to all things Celtic. I was full of memories of a life lived in fear, trapped and seeking escape only to always reach dead ends. I have had these memories since my early childhood, but didn’t understand them. And of course as I matured in the Matrix programming and started the journey into Religion all things that connect you to your organic spirituality are deemed evil. For most of my life I tried to suppress these memories or attribute them to something Satanic trying to steer me away from “God”.

It was very easy for me to run from these memories, because most of the memories were riddled with panic, fear, pain, sadness and loss. But, in my dream reality there was no escape. Consistently throughout my life no matter where I was in my journey, my dream reality kept these memories alive. It made it real easy then to look at these memories as nothing more than reoccurring nightmares. It is so easy to lie to yourself when you are not ready to face the truth of your Eternal Infinite Being.

As I continued on my path in this incarnation and started to see all the false paradigms for what they are, my awareness really began to expand and take me to a place of self-exploration rather than accepting the truths being dished out to the masses. I had to look at these memories again and embrace what was being shared with me in my dream reality. This was my Inner Eternal Essence waking me to an incredible healing journey that I have been on ever since.

This healing process is no joke, because you don’t just put the pain behind you. I had to dive into the pain that I have experienced in this incarnation and heal in the now right where I am in the grit of it all. I began to feel into my pain, embrace it, release it and feel grateful for the experiences. The painful memories that followed me throughout my life were being transformed into lessons leading to greater wisdom of knowing who I am and what my journey is about. This only makes sense to others when they have experienced this healing or are in the process of healing as this truth is being revealed to them.
What I now know is that these “nightmares” remained as my conscious mind in my dream reality continued to present the pain until I could face it subconsciously where I wasn’t willing to feel. Sounds backwards I am sure, but it so crystal clear to me. We know we incarnate with past life traumas that need to be healed and much of the work we do in our present incarnation integrate these experiences and heal across dimensions bringing us full circle and back to wholeness. I have experienced so much healing in this incarnation from my childhood traumas from the birthing process all the way through the journey into the adult trauma that continued on with feelings of abandonment, being unlovable, not being worthy enough, not being good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, etc. As I have healed the pain that stemmed from my parent child relationship with my mother specifically it opened my heart to so much more love and acceptance of not only me, but others as well.

I am not only a Hu-Man experiencing pain nor am I only a Hu-Man experiencing pleasure. I am everything in this journey, anything that is possible I Am! My memories are no longer focused on just the pain, sadness and loss during the Medieval times in which I lived. I have expanded my consciousness and now I have memories of the good times in my past incarnation that haunted for so much of my life. I now remember the happy times of festivals, dancing at gatherings with other beautiful women, the sisterhood that existed, children playing and community. I remember the playfulness of it all and the feeling of being carefree not just the suffering. . My childhood memories in this incarnation are no longer jaded with all that was painful for me. I now see a mother that lived in her own pain body, spirit and soul. I see a woman that needed to be loved so desperately, but felt so unworthy, she couldn’t allow you to love her. She cried more tears than any other Hu-Man I have ever personally seen. Though her expression was mostly terrifying there were times where I could see that unguarded mother that wanted to love me, and wanted to be vulnerable. I cherish those moments all the more today. My most favorite memory is when she would play a song by Donna Fargo titled Funny Face. She would play this song, and hold me close and dance with me. In those moments I now know that I was her rock, her strength and I was strong enough to be that person for her during that time in our lives. Mama thank you for all that you taught me and allowed me to be. I have you to thank for the realization of just how much of a warrior I Am.
It is this incarnation that is bringing me home. I have been on a mission of truth seeking, and soul searching leading me to acknowledgment, healing, gratitude and finding center. These two incarnations were very much entwined in healing my relationship with the divine feminine and all of our suffering throughout eons of time.

Whatever it is that keeps reoccurring in your life… that keeps you up at night… that pain… It is as trapped as you are. Face it, heal it and set Yourself free, free to Be…




My Soul is fascinated with the Dialectic/Dichotomy of Conformity and Protocols. The idea of Conformity is foreign to My Soul, and hard to accept in this journey. Our Souls are not conformists, yet programs run all throughout this Universe to conform Us. We are taught to follow the protocols being presented by those that are perceived to know what is best for Us. Experiencing these conforming programs in our lives has taught Us one very important lesson. We know that We want to be FREE! Coming to awareness that these programs are propagated to control and enslave Us is the beginning of setting Our Souls Free again. I have had to examine these programs in my journey and how they took me from a natural state of Being into the programmed paradigms that exist. I Am debunking them in My journey, and this is bringing Me to the awareness of My Sovereignty. We do not have to agree to the programming any longer. We are waking up from the illusions and Remembering Who We Are… FREEDOM!





The Void



In some ancient texts we read about the Great Void which is related to a creation. I feel so much fear has been created around the Great Void, because it is our return to Self-bringing every fractal back together in full awareness of the love and light that we are. Imagine how bright and beautiful your light will be when you journey through this darkness and see your pure essence without limitation and distortion. Imagine Remembering and Knowing that Free and Sovereign Being that You Always Were. Imagine the Return to innocence and Being Home…

Reality Of Duality



Do you remember when you knew that you were a Powerful Infinite Being? When we enter this Universe to experience the expression of Light and Duality, we leave that Knowing behind as we continue in this journey, so that we can embrace all there is as it is. I do feel that when we incarnate on Gaia coming out of the wombs of our mother’s, we have some memory of our Infinite Sovereignty. When you see babes going about their days, until they are taught otherwise, they are fearless, honest, not subject to authority or limitations. But, as some of us know, parents play their role of bringing us into the fold, and it is as it is meant to be, to begin our journey here into limitation, separation, and duality.

The most beautiful awareness that I have experienced in the last year is that we are the Creators of our own journey! I Am the Author, the Director, the Publisher, the Actor, and the Audience of my life story in this Universe. Wow! How empowering is that!!! When we come to Know this truth and I mean KNOW, not just believe it, what a game changer it is in this constant desire to have a purpose.

Understanding and acknowledging the truth of our role in creating this reality is the beginning of remembering who we are. The blame game can come to an end and our Sovereignty actualized.

Sounds GREAT! But, wait! What about compression? Ahh! We feel so free and Sovereign, like we can conquer anything, which we can, but compression for reintegrating and returning to center point is a very emotional process. I have been in a bit of denial as I have been coming into awareness of who I Am. I thought being an audience/witness to this journey would be a piece of cake. I have been perceived many times as being robotic, because I could move through situations without becoming emotionally invested. Speaking with a beloved brother George Kavassilas recently, he said no, robotic is the wrong word, stoic is more fitting, and once again I felt understood. This one statement healed another part of my being, and allowed me to judge myself less harshly.

I found myself even in my “awakened” state of being, that I still carried a lot of judgments of others in me as well. I was patting myself on the back at times, without even realizing I was doing so. I was such a great observer, and look at these other so called enlightened ones that stay in the drama, being reactionary to every false flag event, wrapped up in god programs, sports, arguing, bickering, debating just giving their power away, and I here I Am, I’ve got this! I still had some of that god program running in me at that time carrying around self-righteousness. Big difference in being Self-Centered and self-righteous Well, well, the beauty of this journey is that we will all experience and learn exactly what we intended, when we intended.



So my life dramatically changed after ending the contract I have with the Being presenting himself as God of All. I was immediately observed by others as not so serious, lighter hearted, and easy going. I also began to experience more emotions, and was being pushed into directions that took me out of my comfort zone. One thing many have had to live with in coming into the truth of who we are is the real world. I was fortunate enough to not be in a work place, my children were grown, and I had no one to answer to other than my husband being in the role of his wife. My mother has passed, my birth father never wanted to know me, and my siblings are dispersed all over. I am not even subject to family drama. I didn’t have to deal with day to day goings on at a job, where I would be faced with religious, political, parenting type conversations, or the relationship issues that come with co-workers. I have not had to send my children off to school or to a doctor to have them vaccinated or be condemned for being an unfit parent. I have not been participating in the Matrix much at all other than with some technology and sharing my experiences with others.

I went through some attacks that started on July 4, 2014 due to this contract ending, but that was nothing compared to what would come after. I do not feel on any level as I have had time to process my recent journey that I was being attacked by the Matrix. I feel 100% that being not just taken out of my comfort zone, but to the extreme that this occurred, was exactly what my Soul wanted to experience so that I would open up more emotionally to the healing that was still left to do, and to fit my feet perfectly in the shoes of others that have had to experience their awakening on the frontlines in this Matrix experiencing compression in a way that I had not yet felt.

Since August of this year I have received a good dose of what it is like for most of Humanity in this Matrix as one with eyes open, and I applaud your bravery, your strength and your fortitude to continue on! There were days that I wanted to give up and let go of all of this. I felt that my world was falling apart, everything was spinning out of my control, and I was failing. I was in the midst of my darkest hour since becoming aware, and would I stand up and claim my Sovereignty or would I cowardly fold? After all, I KNOW that I Am here for this experience in this incarnation, and it is my most important ever! All of my life I had been a strong, independent woman that relied on no one for anything, not because I was a bad ass, I had no one to fall back on in a time of struggle. I now in the past twelve years had allowed myself to be vulnerable and depend on another, and I forgot what it was like to be a woman of strength. When it came down to decision time, there she was! Her light was beaming and she rose up to the occasion and she remembered who she was and what she was capable of. She wiped those tears away, she put the fears behind her and she played in the Matrix as the Sovereign Creator that she is! She was a Victor not a victim!



What I learned from this experience is that a comfort zone is kind of like a vacation. It gives you time to rest, and rejuvenate, but no one stays on vacation indefinitely. Now, I am prepared for the next level of compression that I will go through in this Matrix, because every experience that I just had brought forward the Warrior in me. This Warrior is full of love and compassion for Humanity now more than ever, and deeply grateful for this Universal Journey.






What I am about to express and share in this writing comes from about a two month battle with those that would have preferred that I just sat quietly at home keeping my questions and knowing’s to myself. I wasn’t sure if I was going to share this, but that was just another attempt to silence me, and I kind of like to do things my way. I have made a commitment to myself to be authentic and not be concerned with the perception that others may have of me. I know for those wanting to walk in authenticity feel me, and know where my heart is, and know who I Am, and I am so grateful for your presence in this journey with me. I have also had many communicate with me in private that they have, and or do suffer from similar experiences that I will be sharing. I keep hearing shame and fear of judgment associated over and over with their shares. So, I open my Heart to you by sharing my experiences and tell you, you are not alone, and you will always find your way through the pain in your own Divine timing.

Very shortly after I interviewed George Kavassilas at the end of May 2014 I started experiencing strange occurrences. There was nothing too major just little odd things that are not worth writing about, but got my attention. As it was getting closer to July 4th I had this brilliant idea to do another interview with George. My thinking was let’s put some authentic warrior energy into this Matrix and counter all of the energy that was being created through this false love for God, Country and Patriotism. We all know that during this time a huge amount of false light energy is being created that feeds these programs and the Being’s running them in this system.

George and I agreed to go for it and I was very excited to take part in this. Two hours before we were supposed to start the interview I became extremely sick. I started to feel very nauseous, and was having sharp stomach pains that were making it hard for me to even stand up. I was also very dizzy and weak. I was very close to cancelling, because I didn’t feel I would be able to function normally through our conversation. George and I talked and I shared with him what I was experiencing, but we decided to proceed as planned. During our conversation the energy was really out of balance and what I was experiencing was affecting George as well. Looking back now, I am not even sure if this was supposed to be an interview at all, but feel that it was about the shift that was going on within me and the contracts that I agreed to in this Matrix. During our conversation it was revealed that my contract with, I will just call him Yahweh, because that is the way that I communicated with him in our religious relationship, was coming to an end at that very moment. I was experiencing a full on attack, because he was so distraught over this contract coming to an end. His energy, his pain and loss was very present during this time and in the moment it was brutal. George also realized that during our conversation we were altering a timeline within the Matrix and that was not being received well. Since this time I have been in a daily battle, and it has been very difficult for me to communicate with others. I did feel different immediately after this contract ended. I felt less on edge and less serious. I always carried some of the residual brainwashing from Religion with me that created some internal conflict. I am happy to be free from that even with the backlash from it.

The following events that I will share span from July 4th to the present. I have been fighting nausea, stomach pains, dizziness and clarity daily, but I always communicate that I am a Sovereign Being and that I will stand through this, I will be ok, not only ok, I Am a Conqueror . I wake up in the mornings with bruises and burn marks on my body, crusty blood coming out of my left ear, intense abdominal pains as though I have just come out of a major surgery. There are days that it is hard for me to do anything other than just breathe.

I am not sure how much is being directed at my husband, but he has experienced some things as well, and together we have experienced some things we can’t explain. We woke the morning of July 11th to a notice on our front door left from the city police. Our security alarm had gone off. We have a literal siren by our bedroom door and five dogs. We heard no alarm, no phone call from the security company, no barking dogs, no doorbell from police, or door knocking. They were shining lights in our windows while we were supposedly sound asleep in our bed. It was like we were not in the house at all. We reviewed or security video footage from that night, because of finding the notice on our door. Naturally we wanted to know what had occurred, and what we found was shocking. If we had not seen the video we would have not known how much of an attempt there was to wake us. We didn’t have video in the house so we do not know if we were physically removed or being kept in a state of unconsciousness through what was taken place. There are clearly times when you are being interfered with without your knowledge. Pay attention to the abnormal situations and loss or addition to time so that you know them when they arise.

On another occasion I found a kitten under our back deck while bringing my dogs out. I stopped the dogs; put them back in the house so that I could help this kitten. It was very tiny, and still had the umbilical cord attached, and was wrapped in some kind of weeds. So I go into the house to get something to lay him in to bring him in with me. We went back to look at the footage to see what mama cat may have left this baby or did someone do it knowing we care for strays. What was most important is that I went out at 3pm to do this, but the camera shows me going outside and seeing the kitten at 1pm, 2pm and 3pm. I only went out at 3pm with my awareness in this reality. In the other two-time periods I did a repeat of the actions that I know took place at 3pm except that I do not bring the kitten in on the other occasions. I only did this once at 3pm, and have no idea what was going on at 1pm and 2pm.

I just started taking photos of marks and have been advised to put a digital voice recorder in my room at night, because they never like to be caught, because their ability to interfere with us comes from the fact that most do not believe they exist, and that people who claim such experiences are mental. You are NOT crazy! You are NOT alone! It really did intensify after I interviewed George. I have had experiences my whole life, but nothing that was leaving me physically sick like this. It is very clear to me that what occurred with George and I on July 4th was far more significant to the Matrix than I may ever know while still in this incarnation, but I have lived the wrath of it.

Today, I feel the best that I have since all of this began, and the first time I was able to focus enough to write something down. For any going through these experiences I want you to know that you are making a difference somewhere in a major way, even if you are not aware of it, YOU ARE! Stand in your Sovereignty and Proclaim it to them. This is all about fear and getting you to quiet down and fall in line. You don’t have to! The fact that they fear you enough to put this much effort into you should tell you that what you are doing matters. Don’t give into the fear. We are not all at a place where we can see or feel the love in the journey when experiencing so much suffering, but we can say NO! We can call our Inner Warrior into action and denounce all fear! Remember Who You Are!

Fork In The Road



We all reach a point and time in our journey where we come to that proverbial fork in the road, and we each must choose which road we will take. There is no cookie cutter road that is one size fits all. Some may view your choice as negative others will see it as positive. Everyone has an opinion based on their perceptions, and you can’t choose your path based on how others judge you. There is no right or wrong path, because each one of us is on a journey that our soul needs for growth and balance. When you come to the fork in the road Remember Who You are …! Listen to your own Inner Wisdom … You Know the Way!